God bless us

It's been a while since my parents started asking about me & abang's plan of settling down together. The level of curiosity had elevated from curiosity to persuasion and recently, terrorism.

I wanted to give him a head's up about this but before i got the chance to do so this afternoon my parents asked straight forwardly to him. LOL.

Our responses was COMPLETELY different. I could only sat there, head bowed down, embarrassed to the core and restraining myself from crawling under the table.

Whilst, Abang handled it verry well. Gracefully, even. He explained to them where our relationship is now, his concerns, our priorities, the plans we've discussed, and they all make sense.

Ah, thank God I'm not dating guys my own age..

posesif.

I am one of those girls who frankly hates anything their boyfriend is doing with someone else but them.
I am one of those girls.
those girls I used to sneer at when i was single and have not comprehend the true meaning of the word : "dependent"

I am naturally possessive of my belongings, things that belong to me, but never a person, until these last years.

I used to be jealous when he goes to work and i had to stay home
I still am jealous when he goes out with his friends without me.
and I am ever more jealous now when he had to work on weekends.

Weekends are supposed to be MY time. MINE dammit!!

The only person he should be answering to is ME. the only person he should be wasting his time with is ME. the only person whose phone call and text he has to answer is ME.

Me. Me. Me. Me.
ME!

and NO EXCUSES!!!





** and so Crazy had spoken. Actually, i just OK'd him to work all day this weekend, with a smile no less, knowing full well i'd sulk all day that saturday. :,(

simple

We went nowhere far, stayed nowhere fancy, did nothing glamorous or over the top. Just the usual weekend regime, spoiling our tastebuds and leaning on each other in cozy cafes and corners.

Switching each others iPod along the road, his metal songs which i find too noisy and my bossa jazz songs which he finds too slow even more so with the rain and misty weather surrounding us.

Stayed up late watching TV until we fell asleep in each other's arm and as cheesy as it is, love.

halo apa kabar?

huaaaah

it's been more than a month since i last posted ya? (picnic dresses not included)

since then i have started working in L'oreal! this is my second month..
have shopped my first salary through and through.. the first item i bough was a very pretty black zara 10cm paltform heels! which i love sooo much.. my legs look gorgeous in them, a certain guy told me i looked really sexy in them but sadly i still havent recovered the toe numbing effect (!!).

I also
just got through the worst break down ever and by worst i mean NORAKest ever..

you see, i live in the southern part of jakarta, a.k.a ciganjur.. i always go to schools in south jakarta, and when i started college di UI it's only like 30 minutes from home. and even on weekends the furthest place i go is plaza senayan which takes an hour tops and i never drive there. So, needless to say i hardly ever got stuck in a traffic jam, and even if so either : I'm not the one driving and/or i'm with my friends.

Since i started working i had to commute ciganjur-kuningan, every day, and it takes me like 1.5 hours, and alone. ALONE. alone i had to take on all those wretched buses, angkots, and goddamn motorcycles. so last friday, i litterally cried in the car. I CRIED. NANGIS. malu sih..

tapi tau ngga? bukan cuma gue yang pernah (pernah lho bukan suka) nangis kalo kena macet! my friends too. ditambah PMS.. makin snsitif gila. I felt like screaming! kenapa siih semua bus itu ngalangin jalan gue! kenapa sih motornya jahat semua??? kenapa sih pada ga mau ngasi jalan?? I just want to get to work! fuckers!!!

yeaa it's true when they say traffic's a bitch..

tapi gue udah survey.. it's better berangkat jam 8.30 dari pada jam 8 APALAGI jam 7.30. that's the worst time, bisa 2 jam baru sampe. And it's better lewat mampang on friday because the street's e.m.p.t.y!

next week i'll be surveying the transjakarta.. save on money and energy.. i might convert soon.. bawa mobil kalo mau pergi pergi aja lah..

ya ngga? ;)

picnic dresses

Let's have a picnic by tynz



I'm back and got a vintage set with me! by veej

kangen Sentimental Reasons

Once upon a time dua tahun yang lalu gue adalah seorang kibordis band lokal hampir ngetop di jakarta selatan dan sekitarnya yang namanya 'Sentimental Reasons'. hahahahah

It was crazy times. Hampir seminggu dua kali kalo pulang nyampe rumah jam 3 pagi karena kita sempet bikin eo eoan juga rame". Tiap sabtu dari jam 9 udah stand by di studio untuk latihan sampe sore, terus malemnya kadang jalan", kadang nyari" live music kalo ngga manggung.. haahaa

Tapi akhirnya pecah juga karena sibuk masing masing. That was sad. Tapi sepertinya memang that's for the best, karena ngeband menyita banyak sekali waktu soalnya band gue emang rada ambisius. Dan looking at where we are now setelah memutuskan pursue ambisi masing-masing sepertinya memang waktu itu for the best.

Jadi kangeen gara-gara liat lirik lagu gue dipost di blog gitaris gue radit, dan juga my spacenya dia. Memang yang kayanya masih bermusik sampe sekarang Radit, Ara drummer gue dan Diva si vokalis. Sementara gue dan basis gue Aryo udah ngga..

ini dia nih oknum"nya. Ara, Diva, Radit, Aldi, Me, Aryo.

Kalo reunion lucu juga yah.. :)

Actually gue jadi berfikir lagu yang gue tulis waktu itu yang judulnya 'Selamanya' itu sebenernya lucu juga sih kalo gue kasih buat pacar gue sebagai hadiah anniversary.

Soalnya waktu dulu itu semua lagu yang gue tulis dan dari gue idenya ada 'untuk'nya. I mean, ada ilhamnya a specific guy, kecuali lagu Selamanya ini.. waktu dulu ditanya lagunya untuk siapa gue bilang, belum ada yang pantes di kasih yang ini.. gitu hahahaha

Now that I've found the guy why not give the song? Masalahnya pacar gue heavy metal gitu jadi gue takut malah di ketawain bo.. kan malu.. gue rasa anniversarynya aja dia ngga akan inget.. meskipun udah diingetin terussss..

sighs..

skeleton in my living room

there's a skeleton in my living room..

I mean, REAL HUMAN SKELETON!

my sis Jivi who's in med school brought it home to study. An activity which she still hadnt done yet.. *sighs

It's really creepy.. and my sis put it in a shopping bag lying on the floor! I told her to tidy it up because it's disrespectful and she's already got tindihan yesterday night. I also told her to ask for pardon to the unfortunate skeleton.. It might sound too superstitious, but I believe in such things like spirits and so and so and we should at least honor them in some way. Because if i died i wouldn't want to be stored in a shoppping bag!

Anyways i have heard some scary stories about real human bones from my soon to be dentist friend cherie too. I bloody hope nothing like that ever happens at home.

My mom so scared she doesnt want to be left downstairs alone. So am i.

I thought about taking a picture of it but its' too creepy. Wouldnt want it to come haunt me.. hii..