job hunting

hyaahh.. setelah lulus datanglah kegiatan paling ngga ngenakin sedunia: job hunting..
males banget deh rasanya, tapi kalo ngga dikerjain juga mau apa bengang bengong di rumah..

so far gue udah ngirim ke nestle, P&G dan unilever.. kemaren di nestle udah sampe tahap assesment centre.. tapi entah.. hya hya hya hya hya..

minta infonya ya teman-teman kalau ada lowongan di marketing, brand management atau adv. account exec.. berminat nih! apalagi kalo kantornya di jakarta selatan dan gajinya gede! huehehehehehehehehhe

anyways anyways ada yang aneh minggu ini pada diri teman-teman gue.. tiba-tiba jadi pada hiper ngajak jalan-jalan.. super deh.. heran gue.. kenapa tiba-tiba jadi laku gini? hari ini aja ada ajakan lunch, dinner dan clubbing dari crowd yang berbeda.. lunch dan dinnernya gue jabanin tapi entah deh clubbingnya.. soalnya capek dan bokek hahahaha

semalem pergi sama marcya dan Rama makan abuba dan impulsively ke tabac. dan maksud gue bener" impulsively pas lagi lewat jalanan kemang situ gue dan marcya jadi pengen ke tabac dan langsung teriak "KANAN!" ke Rama yang secara refleks mengikuti. untung lagi sepi jalannya hahahahha

Tempatnya lucu banget deh.. unexpected, tapi sett dah mahal beeeddh.. martini 95k, vodka tonic 75k, absolut juga 95k. dan resenya ngga ada menu jadi baru tau harga pas bill dateng.. tadi malem sih banyaknya expat expat. terus gue duduk di meja sebelahnya catherine wilson.. :p ntar deh kesana lagi kalo gaji gue udah belasan juta hehehehehhe

yaudah deh mau mandi duluuuu :D

swing.. swing..

a few days ago.. i get soo scared suddenly.. i had been procrastinating my desk research for the Nestle presentation test for wednesday.
the fact that i am actually graduating and about to throw myself to the 'real' world was suddenly gripping. tight.

what if i can't get a job? what if i do get a job but i come to hate it? should i just go to school again? tha list go on and on and on mulai dari soal pekerjaan to 'what if i can't provide myself a good meal on a daily basis?' to 'what if i can't be a good wife/mother'.

I feel like hanging by a thread swinging back and forth between a cliff named 'privileged life with parents' and 'time to make your own life dear'. and its effing scary. i actually cried. i did, really.

When i confided in my mom she said,
'Well life must go on. you have to face it head on. mau gimana lagi dong? Mama kan doain kamu terus, insya Allah kamu bisa...'

You see since i was little i was raised to fully understand that my family aren't my rescue team. if i fall, i fall alone. My parents always make sure i fully realise that every decision i make is mine alone to choose and to take responsibility of. even more so now that i've graduated and everything. and also make sure that i know that i can and i will succeed..

'kalo ngga bisa juga, kan bisa minta ditampung Yose..'
or get married if all else fails. Sometimes i wonder if my Dad has only been her escape plan all these times.. hahahahaha

later that night i got news from my friend Dinda that she just gave birth to her son that evening. Isn't it wonderful? :) that news gave me spirit. I thought, 'If Dinda can be a wife and a mother already, i sure can score a job and do a lot more!'

updates!

hyaaahh sudah lama tidak ngablog hihihi.. soo updates!

1. i have finished my thesis!! yay! double yay! am currently waiting for a call from the faculty regarding the sidang shedule.. deg deg degaaan...

2. am seriously considering on not doing corporate work.. i am seriously considering to build my own business..

Right now i am trying to work out a business plan. I've always wanted to be involved in fashion business. i know it's very common, etc. etc. but hey, why not give it a try. it's not about how many competitors out there it's about how far do you dare to DIFFERENTIATE right? ,)

I've gathered muses, ideas, trying to draw a picture of the girl i am striving to dress, which, unsurprisingly very similar to.. ME. yeah, big news.. :p speaking of muses,

3. am currently musing over (is that the right term?) miss Daisy Lowe of London.

Above, photographed with carrot stick like then boyf Will Cameron Jr. of Blondelle.. She's now dating Mark Ronson! yes, the music producer.. yes, the one who won 3 grammys, yes yes, the one who found Amy Winehouse and what's her name? Can't believe i forgot..


4. currently also loving Flight of Conchord! It's a band, it's an HBO series and they are hilarious! hihihi i even passed it to my dear boyf already and he loves it too. it's about 2 new zealander trying to make it big in NY. they sing like they are drunk and absolutely idiotically funny!


And that's about it! :D