for better or for worse

all these contradictory feelings.. some may say it's exaggerated admiration or lust or love or whatever. i really dont want to know... yet..

the weirdest thing is i feel like i can tell him anything i want, any feeling i feel in this world and he would just smile and take it and give a smart reply!! that's a first.. i'm not the kind of girl who tell people how i feel..much less boys that i've come to like. it's as if he can contain me..

or maybe i just like him too much ya???
and when i like boys too much i usually end up hurted..

hm.. well, let's not think about all this too much, shall we??
:D