swing.. swing..

a few days ago.. i get soo scared suddenly.. i had been procrastinating my desk research for the Nestle presentation test for wednesday.
the fact that i am actually graduating and about to throw myself to the 'real' world was suddenly gripping. tight.

what if i can't get a job? what if i do get a job but i come to hate it? should i just go to school again? tha list go on and on and on mulai dari soal pekerjaan to 'what if i can't provide myself a good meal on a daily basis?' to 'what if i can't be a good wife/mother'.

I feel like hanging by a thread swinging back and forth between a cliff named 'privileged life with parents' and 'time to make your own life dear'. and its effing scary. i actually cried. i did, really.

When i confided in my mom she said,
'Well life must go on. you have to face it head on. mau gimana lagi dong? Mama kan doain kamu terus, insya Allah kamu bisa...'

You see since i was little i was raised to fully understand that my family aren't my rescue team. if i fall, i fall alone. My parents always make sure i fully realise that every decision i make is mine alone to choose and to take responsibility of. even more so now that i've graduated and everything. and also make sure that i know that i can and i will succeed..

'kalo ngga bisa juga, kan bisa minta ditampung Yose..'
or get married if all else fails. Sometimes i wonder if my Dad has only been her escape plan all these times.. hahahahaha

later that night i got news from my friend Dinda that she just gave birth to her son that evening. Isn't it wonderful? :) that news gave me spirit. I thought, 'If Dinda can be a wife and a mother already, i sure can score a job and do a lot more!'

my sex and my city

"Everything in my life is so perfect right now. I'm so happy, I'm terrified!"

-Charlotte

Have you seen Sex and the City and pick your own quotes? I have and that one of above is mine. hehehe

Last night i went to see it with my girlfriends Hany, Usie, Cherrie. My sex and the city girls. No need to explain why lah ya.. :p. We had a blast..

The evening start with dinner at Duck King , Cherie's treat for her birthday. We ate like pigs, munching away dishing updates of the latest in our lives. Some are good some are bad. Hany's going through a B-I-G break up. I have just graduated and anxiously expecting a bright future. Usie is reconciling with his boyf of 2 years. and Cherie is in a no man's land situation. just as the movie's trailer puts it

'some things begin, some things end, and some things never change'

(FADE IN TO US 4 GIRLS THROWING FOOD AT EACH OTHER, LAUGHING)

After dinner we went to the movie theatre, the Premiere studio.. hahahaha Hany's treating this time, last week was her birthday. Superr asik bagnet di studio premiere itu, we can recline the seat until it's almost flat like in bed, and they give velvety blankets better than the ones in planes. And best of all we got the VIP seats in the studio because my original seat was broken! It couldnt be reclined so i demanded to change seats for the four of us. hahahaha!

Poor Hany cried a lot during the movie we actually went to her seat hugging her and i held her hands during most of it. She's our Carrie last night, broken hearted and all..

and we ended the night with drinks at Buzz, -my treat this time- toasting for being twenty somethings and well wishes for our happiness.. :)

Driving home, i feel very lucky. To have the girls, of course. and because like Charlotte i'm the one blessed with the most solid relationship of all the girls. So of course i text my Mr. Big to tell him how much i love him and hoping that i too will get my happy ending.. ;)

updatesss!!

1. Jinitya Yasmine Basarah, S. Sos
yeaaaapppp folkss!! i have graduated!!! hihihihihihi..
The thesis assesment or Sidang thingy went well, veery well actually! i daresay the judges are satisfied with my thesis. Mengingat lembar feedback isinya cuma perbaikan teknis dan redaksional. huheheuehuehu semoga nilainya juga memuaskan! Sidang jumat kemaren turut dihadiri orang tua gue dan sahabat-sahabat yang semuanya menonton ke dalam ruang sidang hahahaha here are the photos courtesy of my dear friend chichi


my supporters and my graduation gift : meteran! hahahaha


2. The Anya bag has arrived!
My parents got back from europe on thursday right before my sidang. And thus my first encounter with my baby..

grinning shamelessly while playing dress up just a few hours before ke kampus untuk disidang.. hahaha it's weird but i find playing dressing-up therapeutic hahaha

3. I made my debut on my boyf's extended family
huahuahuahuahua.. last sat was his sister's wedding. i came wearing kebaya, heels and all, and got introduced to all his Unis and Udas and everything.. Even caught myself in that bahasa daerah situation. You know.. when one of the elderly jokingly ask something preferably marriage related things to you and your partner in their own local language and you can only smile dumbstruckly.. hahaha but it all went well lah ya.. Hopefully i made a good impression on them hihihi..

kiss me instead Penn! :)

I just finished watching the whole Gossip Girl series last weekend.. 3 episode terakhirnya banyak kejutan-kejutan dehh pokoknya and on the finale menjadi menyebalkannn... huhuhu

Sebenernya i'm not such a big fan of the series or the novel, but i keep on watching for the beautiful people in it and their clothes hhahahaha.. :p it's such a feast for the eyes! i especially loveee Penn Badgley. he is soo cute and resembles my dear boyf .. krik krikk hahaha that is more of a wish actually! :p anyways i googled his and blake's infamous Mexico trip pap pictures just now.. hihihihi and they're still saying that the are not dating.. yeah yeah.. and the sun rises at dusk..

too bad in the series Serena and Dan didn't get the same happy ending.. *ooopS! spoilerr :p

also i am downloading Amy Winehouse's songs from limewire.. i have vowed not to like or be interested in the singer.. she's ugly, never sober, and famously not want to go to rehab. last year when i was in London her own family asked fans to stop buying her cd which would support her lifestyle.. but also last weekend i saw her video on Mtv and i got interested. So instead of buying her cd i'll just pirate her tunes! :p

I am currently making the ppt presentation for my sidang.. in may granddad's house because the electricity at mine is being shut down sinc 9 am until later 5 pm this afternoon. suckkss. anyways, please do wish me luck! :D

WoD

the word of the day is
ANXIOUS

mengapa hey mengapa?
karena oh karena it is decided..

Sidang Skripsi
Nama : Jinitya Yasmine Basarah
NPM: 0904100218
Hari / Tanggal : Jumat 20 Juni 2008
Ruangan : M104

oh doakan ya..

and i'm also anxious waiting for my parents to come home from their second honeymoon to europe. i hope my mom's not pregnant, it'd be too weird.. but i am anxious mostly because she bought me an anya kennedy bag :p hahahahhahahaha

updates!

hyaaahh sudah lama tidak ngablog hihihi.. soo updates!

1. i have finished my thesis!! yay! double yay! am currently waiting for a call from the faculty regarding the sidang shedule.. deg deg degaaan...

2. am seriously considering on not doing corporate work.. i am seriously considering to build my own business..

Right now i am trying to work out a business plan. I've always wanted to be involved in fashion business. i know it's very common, etc. etc. but hey, why not give it a try. it's not about how many competitors out there it's about how far do you dare to DIFFERENTIATE right? ,)

I've gathered muses, ideas, trying to draw a picture of the girl i am striving to dress, which, unsurprisingly very similar to.. ME. yeah, big news.. :p speaking of muses,

3. am currently musing over (is that the right term?) miss Daisy Lowe of London.

Above, photographed with carrot stick like then boyf Will Cameron Jr. of Blondelle.. She's now dating Mark Ronson! yes, the music producer.. yes, the one who won 3 grammys, yes yes, the one who found Amy Winehouse and what's her name? Can't believe i forgot..


4. currently also loving Flight of Conchord! It's a band, it's an HBO series and they are hilarious! hihihi i even passed it to my dear boyf already and he loves it too. it's about 2 new zealander trying to make it big in NY. they sing like they are drunk and absolutely idiotically funny!


And that's about it! :D

Holy Golightly!!

SKIRPSIKU SUDAH SELESAI!!!!!

YAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!

I can sleep better.. way way better now.. wuihihihihihihihihi..
sekarang tinggal menunggu jadwal sidangnya sahaja..

deg-degan juga sih hihihi

alhamdulillaah.. i feel like hugging everybody ni hihihihi

*HUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSS**

:)))